A q no sabias...

I love grapes, but I hate raisins
I am terrified of cockroaches and potato bugs
I love watching chick flicks alone, that way if I cry no one can sees me
I think my best feature are my eyes
I studied Criminal Justice cause I actually wanted to help
I talk to myself all the time, and I like to think it's normal
Best concert so far has been Erykah Badu!
Life has never been the same since I discovered sushi
My all time best friend was and will always be Muneca
I have this obsession with trees, I still haven’t figured out why
I have difficulty opening up and getting serious about things that scare me
I love being alone, but I hate feeling lonely
I like the smell of rain and the feeling of water on my feet
I never wear pants or socks to bed, always underwear and a t-shirt
I love taking random pictures, the best photos I’ve taken are unexpected moments
I’m not 100% sure where my life is headed, but not knowing makes it interesting and full of options!
The only real exercise you’ll get me to do is hiking
I am still single, cause I actually believe in true love...



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Aloooo...

Oh c'on!
I'm really not that bad...

<3

Damn you Dress

Putting the dress on doesn't help. It's just another reminder of nothing. How 'could have' never was. How somethings don't workout... lately all the time. Just the thought of wearing the dress... it's like wearing a mask. Something I am not, something I will never be.

How can I say no, how can I refuse to wear it. I don't feel beautiful in the dress, the dress lies. It makes me lie to myself. BUT I'll wear it, with a smile.

You won't see me in one of those in a while. I quit wearing those dresses, I quit all the nonsense that comes with it the dress....

F U dress! and all that comes with it!

Some Days are Down

Some days I wonder if I fight to hide other feelings. I got in to an argument with my dad and I said things I shouldn't have but I did and what's done is done. Now I regret it but the anger hasn't left. It's been around for a while. I should get over my self but some things are not easy to forget. I did it again , I say things that I know are hurtful but I still do it to prove my point. I forget some people prefer not to be told. Some days I wished I lived very far away.... that way I can miss them and appreciate what I have at home. I should do something about that thought.... Moving away....

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I have a feeling I will dream tonight... Good night.

that night

Sigue mi tormenta con los sueños, the lack of them… ya van varios dias q me levanto con la cabeza en blanco sin ningina recoleccion de algun sueño (se siente horrible). Este fin de
semana hubo eventos q me hicieron sentir incomoda y fuera de lugar, pero lo
sobre pase… aunque me volvi a portar cabronamente con los q mas quiero, I know. Una persona me dijo me acento les molesta... jaja! Y otra me dijo que era bonita, jaja mas risa!

Y de nuevo hubieron discusiones sobre la adiccion. Yo siempre e dicho todo en exsesivo es malo, pero no todos piensan como yo. Algunos se pierden en otro mundo... y por mas
que quiera ayudar no se puede… como se ayuda a alguen que no se quiere ayudar a
si mismo?

Fuera de eso… yo como persona me siento bien. Dije cosas q nacieron del corazon y no me arrepiento. Aunque para algunas cosas mi corazon es demaciado sensible, pero haci soy, es inevitable, y por fin acepto esa parte blanda de mi. Prometo escribir mas, cuando andan
las cosas muy mal no lo ago y desde hace tiempo yo como persona andaba mal… pero regrese.
Mis fotos me ayudan mucho.

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The XX

The hair on my neck stands up... love this song, enjoy ;)

It wouldn't be the same without the lisp!

Lo que no paso

The trip to NY was canceled for X reason. People don't matter like they did before. In the need to make another change. I don't know what to do with this personality that gets bored of everything. I can't stick to something for too long. It keeps me moving but nothing is ever permanent.

I've always said that I scare myself on how easy it is for me to say good bye to some people. bye bye!

Letty, she is always there! Hello!

Men

MEN MEN MEN MEN MEN MEN MEN MEN MEN MEN MEN MEN MEN MEN MEN MEN MEN MEN MEN MEN MEN MEN MEN MEN MEN MEN MEN MEN MEN MEN ................................. Son insoportables y la misma vez los buscamos........

No me toques las piernas que estoy sensible....

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Someone like You....

Nevermind, I'll find someone like you... Don't forget me, I beg, I remember you said:- "Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead"...

Luego regreso... ya que baje la marea...



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Azul

Always try your best! That way if things don't workout you won't ever have regrets!!!

Now 25! No comments just a lot of thoughts in my head, so many that I don't even know how to explain. Four months till the year ends! I still have a good feeling... interesting conversations that make me think.

Saludos a los q aun leen!

lo inesperado

Mi salud no anda nada bien. Y me entristece pensar lo que puede pasar en un futuro. Todo marchaba tan bien! todo va muy bien con los planes y ahora me topo con esto. No me dejare derrotar, y sere mas fuerte con mi enfermeda! Hare todo lo posible para que todo regrese a la normalida! Fe... esto requiere mucha fe.


Mandenme vibras positibas! las necesito... por muy fuerte que me diga ser.

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keep on moving

El otro dia llegue del trabajo, agobiada como siempre. Usualmente me recuesto a descansar, o me voy a la montana. Pero no se que me dio por leer el diario que comenze hace anos. Back back way back!

Ah y me llevo a momentos muy muy felices, y a la misma vez muy frustrantes. Mi manera de pensar y las ilusiones que expresaba sobre tantas cosas. Vivia en una nube! En un sueno donde todo se basaba en mi. El mundo me valia, solo me importaba encontrar mi felicidad y me expresaba sin control. Cuando me satisfacia ser rebelde. Cuando era una feminista jaja y creia en el amor a primera vista!

Cuando pensaba que todo lo bonito llegaria porque haci era la vida. Que me podia portar cabronamente porque hasta me lo reian siertas personas. Creo que en ese entonses tenia demasiado tiempo. Pensaba demasiado, tenia tiempo de sentarme a planear mi bella vida. No se que es mejor la realista, yo, o la sonadora que todo era chill con una chela y un cigarrillo... jaja cuando todo era Erykah Badu! habeses me extrano...



Regresaria solo un dia... solo si todo fuera exactante como lo escribi... solo en mi punto de vista. La realidad puede ser muy fuerte y dificil de enfrentar ahhh...

jaja y me rio de la manera en que escribia mis eventos. Donde pedia que me pasaran cosas, y cuando me pasaban no las podia crer... y al poco tiempo me frustrabam porque yo misma atraia lo que pasaba. No me arrepiento de nada!!!

Es bonito recordad... siempre y cuando se entienda que el pasado se queda en el pasado. Y que todo pasa por alguna razon. Aunque unas veces sea dificil de entender. Haci es la vida...

Total, Cheers! Escuchen The XX! Basic space... se lo recomiendo!

Note to Self

Every opportunity has an expiration date, never forget it!!! Tengo el blog muy abandonado.

Se arruino mi Olympus, puesto que no tengo camara para tomar fotos nuevas :( q tristesa! Haci que anuncio, un regalo no me cae nada mal jaja

Estoy planeando un viaje para el fin de 2011... me voy directo a NYC! the big apple! y no se podria ir a Nueva York con alguna otra persona mas que con mi Edgar! Eso me hace muy feliz! Tenemos tanto que planear y que mucho que ahorrar.

Muneca me visito en sueno! ahhh que linda es mi bebe me lambia la cara, y mobia sus rabito como ella lo sabia mober. La estran-o tanto! ...

In the back of my head I still think I'll go to Cuba... even if I'm 60.. .

Pack up... I'm straight... Enough

Oh say say say
Oh say say say
Oh say say say

Oh say say say
Oh say say say say... Wait!
They don't love you like I love you
Wait.
They don't love you like I love you
Maps...........
Wait! They don't love you like I love you ....

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Welcome Santiago

Por fin llego Santiago! El 10 de Marzo... muy temprano.

Sofia esta super feliz por la llegada de su nuevo hermanito, me dice "Tia, he is soooo cute! oh oh my baby Shanti"

Es grandisimo! no lo entiendo porque, si es hijo de Victor jaja, I guess he will have the body structure of the mothers side. My sister is a warrior!

He is perfect! I love his chubby cheeks!

Santiago, welcome to your very interesting family! We all love you so very much!

:)

Sterio Love

Esta cancion tenia que quedar aqui, me encanta!




Y el video es increible!

Enjoy! :)

dentro de mi botella

Yesterday was a good and bad day....

I'll explain, my brothers birthday was on Thursday, but celebrated til yesterday. We went to san dimas park, like when we were children. Visit the mini zoo and viewed the horses. ahhh lovely, I lack nature in my life. We had a picnic, ate fruit chips, and in n out burgers (yum!!!).

Then we headed to Sofia's house to cut Juniors cake. When we got there Victor had a CPR training for all of us. So I know how to perform CPR, yay! We watched some of those fucken naco videos with jokes, stupid jokes that is, but family time was nice.

I got home and began to watch The Holiday. I don't know why I get sad with love movies.

My mind goes back back back... going back is not that good. Although I lived very very happy moments in my life, all is gone. Going back just invades my self with sadness... and I can't help it feel hopeless. Hope is my motivation and when I lose it I break inside.

Many times I wish I could change my stubborn way of being. I always want to know everything behind the scenes. I look back at all the times I pushed him away... and I think of different things I could have done better... but now it is too late. I'm not sure how I feel about second chances. I feel they are never as good as the first one. I've always said, what is meant to be it will be... we just gotta stay strong, head held up high... and don't let your surroundings break us down. We each live the life we want to live.

Thank God for Ari, she is my shoulder and the one person who understands me. We help each other fight our own demons *sigh*... but today I feel better. Just another week at begin at work.

The goo goo dolls place me in a different world... a happy world

Dentro mi botella de cerveza...

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better days to come

I took Sofia on a train ride.... She was sooooo excited! She loved it.

We walked walked and walked. Another movie being filmed on the streets of L.A.

There is nothing better than spending time with Sofia when my brain flows with stupid thought. I hate feeling like a bad person, because I am not. I just place myself on the worst surroundings. Don't ask me how or why but I do. I just know that I never did anything wrong and we should all take responsibility for the words that come out of our mouth.

Amazing design... and the planning continues...

This week will be difficult but I'll manage, I always do! and that is what I love about me, I always get back up no matter how many times I fall. You can never give up! never ever ever!

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I've been left... behind

I am excited of all the upcoming events! I need to get it moving with the baby shower, Sofia's third birthday and Alma's wedding plans! ah 'n' Sil's upcoming wedding. I have a date with her this weekend, it will be nice after not hanging out in over a year.


I've been right, I've been left
I've been wrong, I've been left behind
I've been up but mostly down



....seriously! *sigh*

tick-tock

Remember 2010

Mas del 2010... porque nunca tube tiempo para contarlo...

Shopping, mucho shopping... el shopping me hace feliz! muy muy feliz!!

Las calles de L.B... no me gustan... son muy frias... Long Beach en si es una ciudad muy fria

yum yum miso soup... its the best, sushi itself is the best.... delicious!

Relax, calm down... it's not that serious... ;)

These fools dragged me to South Central... just to see la lucha libre... jaja good day.

una de esas noches perdida en el York

ella... cuando oficialmete cumplio 27... y le regale la famosa fuji instantania que tanto queria :)

ella cuando cumplio 24....jaja y solo queria burgers in the backyard con todas sus sistas!

una linda fuente en Pasadena

te invito a contar todas las palmas de L.A.... your in?

SCARY!

..... tan tan!

Bienvenido el 2011.... este es mi a-no! lo predije desde hace un a-no....

.Y continua el blog....