estorbando el paso

Sometimes I can't believe people. I can believe why some people ask me for advice. Me... me who is confused on so many things in life, me who is not sure what her values or point of view, me who has shit in her head.

I don't understand why I get all these texts with questions about feelings, questions about love, relationships, and life changing decisions.

And... the worst part is that I don't care. I try my best and put myself in their position, but honestly I can't... People expect you to care when you know they don't care about you.... ahhhh I hate feeling like a bad person, like I don't give a fuck, but I have to be selfish when you know some people in your life aren't forever...

here today, gone tomorrow, SO TRUE!

But on a happy note, I am back in the search to better ways, opening doors to my career, no longer fear the loneliness of the future. You are as lonely as you allow yourself to be :)

I have new ideas and I am excited, I will try my best to gather all the things I need to prepare for the plan of next year, like I have mentioned before... 2011 is MY YEAR!!! hah! magic... not even prayers can same YOU now!

oh oh oh... my dad... 60 now! :)

I have pictures from my recent concert! ahhhh in later post stay tuned!

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5 places before I die

I was thinking and thinking, and I came up with a list of the 5 top places I will go before I die!
No particular order...

Costa Rica

Espana

Australia

Canada

y Cuba

Aqui quedo :) Pero nada es para siempre, nada es definitivo... todo cambia con el viento.... la vida ya esta escrita... todo en la vida esta calcado en piedra, todo todo! todito TODO! Cada elemento! cada mirada, cada sonrisa, cada mueca, cada detalle, solo a que vivir!

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Winehouse

I started the day off on the right foot... I got pretty for work, I wore one of those cute dresses I used to wear at BCBG. People are different in this new job... so cold. I remember the warmth that my BCBG girls used to give me. I try saying 'goodbye' to people, and some don't even acknowledge that I am trying to say ciao.

Sometimes life is that way, cold. Things like this make me feel sad and lonely. Especially the latest things that have been occurring in my life. Hey! but this is life! and its real! We pretty much get fucked over and the best option is to suck it up and get tougher. How tough can a person get?

I miss my cigarettes, my wine and cigarette nights. But a while back I promised myself to stop the nasty habit. I get scared the smoke will kill my soul along with my lungs jaja

Today someone told me not to drink so much coffee, he said it makes the soul black haha what a piece of mierda! To top it off, I wore all black today. I made his day though.... I made his personal calendar, one that began on Mondays, he has a strong feelings with the week beginning on Sunday jaja we are all crazy in our way. At least I made someone smile :)




You go back to her, and I go back to us....

Good night!