Carlos

I have something I feel I need to release... I never talk about it because I know it's not in my place to judge or question the decision of God. But after over 10 years I still do! I try not to but I can't help it question why why why why why why why!!!!?!?!?!?

Now I know we all gotta go sometime or another, that is our nature, we enter this world to one day depart onto to somewhere different, but really? that soon? I feel like if God didn't give me the chance to take advantge of him! and back then I was only eleven what did I know about life?but somehow now eventhough he is no longer with us, I feel we connect more! Now I wonder about the great conversations we could have had! He was different... not like most people, not afraid, he was him, he was like me... (I understand myself)

Now I understand his room, his posters, his way of dressing! Now that I look at it, he influeced me. His bob marley posters on the wall, his ub40cds, vanilla ice! bones thugs.... his crappy car and him not giving a fuck, cause you know why? that crappy car still got him around! Maybe thats why he left, cause he understood the reality of life and how most of what we get caught up doesn't matter... what matters is to keep you soul rich, and don't impress anybody cause the real you is impressive! But he knew that, he got the message of life early on! oh oh how I wish I could converse with him one last time... but one day...

This video is for him... thanks for everything!




He loved Bob!!! oh I wish for too much... I hope he sees me and I hope he is proud with I have made out of my life.


I love the natural way Marley singed!

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my desk

and (sigh) this is what my desk looks like today, and how it will look till i finish this semester! i'm going nuts with my internship paper! can't wait to finally walk, and be done!!!

Animo Claudia! si se puede! eh podido por 5 años un 30 page paper can't stop me!!!

see ya guys, hope everyone is having a better weekend than me, cause this lady ain't going out!

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Thank you to you

A thank you to you, yes you silly goose! and you and you and you oh yeah and you too! Let's not forget you too!

I'm so happy! Someone reads my blog. I've always wonder if anybody cared to read... sometimes I thought it was me and only me in this cyber world, but nope. I just wonder who else reads me? who else sees my random photos, weird songs, and crazy ideas, my silly words, the way I express myself haha... more than anything I do it for me though.... serves as therapy I guess we can say... it's my self fulfilment! and that is the main goal! so far it's being achieved! yayyyyyayyyy!!!!

Se siento rico I must admit. Oh also happy my sista left me a comment :) I don't get many comments that's why I thought no one cared to read, but comments are nice....

Sometimes I think of deleting my blog... and I have this close to doing it, for one reason or another, but them again, I want to keep it going for years! that way when I'm 30 40 and 50 I can go back to my crazy state of mind as a young woman! haha me and my crazy thoughts!

Well today I blog for those who read me, thank you! se les agradese de corazon!!!

Hoy el cielo pinta azul! I love it when my days start blue!!! I just gotta keep it up this way ALLL day!

Have a fantastic day everybody!

:)

wrong turn

Not much to say... just... what way to go? I think I made wrong turn back there somewhere!



But there WILL be a brighter day!


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