Aloooo...

Oh c'on!
I'm really not that bad...

<3

Damn you Dress

Putting the dress on doesn't help. It's just another reminder of nothing. How 'could have' never was. How somethings don't workout... lately all the time. Just the thought of wearing the dress... it's like wearing a mask. Something I am not, something I will never be.

How can I say no, how can I refuse to wear it. I don't feel beautiful in the dress, the dress lies. It makes me lie to myself. BUT I'll wear it, with a smile.

You won't see me in one of those in a while. I quit wearing those dresses, I quit all the nonsense that comes with it the dress....

F U dress! and all that comes with it!

Some Days are Down

Some days I wonder if I fight to hide other feelings. I got in to an argument with my dad and I said things I shouldn't have but I did and what's done is done. Now I regret it but the anger hasn't left. It's been around for a while. I should get over my self but some things are not easy to forget. I did it again , I say things that I know are hurtful but I still do it to prove my point. I forget some people prefer not to be told. Some days I wished I lived very far away.... that way I can miss them and appreciate what I have at home. I should do something about that thought.... Moving away....

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