lo inesperado

Mi salud no anda nada bien. Y me entristece pensar lo que puede pasar en un futuro. Todo marchaba tan bien! todo va muy bien con los planes y ahora me topo con esto. No me dejare derrotar, y sere mas fuerte con mi enfermeda! Hare todo lo posible para que todo regrese a la normalida! Fe... esto requiere mucha fe.


Mandenme vibras positibas! las necesito... por muy fuerte que me diga ser.

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keep on moving

El otro dia llegue del trabajo, agobiada como siempre. Usualmente me recuesto a descansar, o me voy a la montana. Pero no se que me dio por leer el diario que comenze hace anos. Back back way back!

Ah y me llevo a momentos muy muy felices, y a la misma vez muy frustrantes. Mi manera de pensar y las ilusiones que expresaba sobre tantas cosas. Vivia en una nube! En un sueno donde todo se basaba en mi. El mundo me valia, solo me importaba encontrar mi felicidad y me expresaba sin control. Cuando me satisfacia ser rebelde. Cuando era una feminista jaja y creia en el amor a primera vista!

Cuando pensaba que todo lo bonito llegaria porque haci era la vida. Que me podia portar cabronamente porque hasta me lo reian siertas personas. Creo que en ese entonses tenia demasiado tiempo. Pensaba demasiado, tenia tiempo de sentarme a planear mi bella vida. No se que es mejor la realista, yo, o la sonadora que todo era chill con una chela y un cigarrillo... jaja cuando todo era Erykah Badu! habeses me extrano...



Regresaria solo un dia... solo si todo fuera exactante como lo escribi... solo en mi punto de vista. La realidad puede ser muy fuerte y dificil de enfrentar ahhh...

jaja y me rio de la manera en que escribia mis eventos. Donde pedia que me pasaran cosas, y cuando me pasaban no las podia crer... y al poco tiempo me frustrabam porque yo misma atraia lo que pasaba. No me arrepiento de nada!!!

Es bonito recordad... siempre y cuando se entienda que el pasado se queda en el pasado. Y que todo pasa por alguna razon. Aunque unas veces sea dificil de entender. Haci es la vida...

Total, Cheers! Escuchen The XX! Basic space... se lo recomiendo!

Note to Self

Every opportunity has an expiration date, never forget it!!! Tengo el blog muy abandonado.

Se arruino mi Olympus, puesto que no tengo camara para tomar fotos nuevas :( q tristesa! Haci que anuncio, un regalo no me cae nada mal jaja

Estoy planeando un viaje para el fin de 2011... me voy directo a NYC! the big apple! y no se podria ir a Nueva York con alguna otra persona mas que con mi Edgar! Eso me hace muy feliz! Tenemos tanto que planear y que mucho que ahorrar.

Muneca me visito en sueno! ahhh que linda es mi bebe me lambia la cara, y mobia sus rabito como ella lo sabia mober. La estran-o tanto! ...

In the back of my head I still think I'll go to Cuba... even if I'm 60.. .

Pack up... I'm straight... Enough

Oh say say say
Oh say say say
Oh say say say

Oh say say say
Oh say say say say... Wait!
They don't love you like I love you
Wait.
They don't love you like I love you
Maps...........
Wait! They don't love you like I love you ....

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Welcome Santiago

Por fin llego Santiago! El 10 de Marzo... muy temprano.

Sofia esta super feliz por la llegada de su nuevo hermanito, me dice "Tia, he is soooo cute! oh oh my baby Shanti"

Es grandisimo! no lo entiendo porque, si es hijo de Victor jaja, I guess he will have the body structure of the mothers side. My sister is a warrior!

He is perfect! I love his chubby cheeks!

Santiago, welcome to your very interesting family! We all love you so very much!

:)

Sterio Love

Esta cancion tenia que quedar aqui, me encanta!




Y el video es increible!

Enjoy! :)

dentro de mi botella

Yesterday was a good and bad day....

I'll explain, my brothers birthday was on Thursday, but celebrated til yesterday. We went to san dimas park, like when we were children. Visit the mini zoo and viewed the horses. ahhh lovely, I lack nature in my life. We had a picnic, ate fruit chips, and in n out burgers (yum!!!).

Then we headed to Sofia's house to cut Juniors cake. When we got there Victor had a CPR training for all of us. So I know how to perform CPR, yay! We watched some of those fucken naco videos with jokes, stupid jokes that is, but family time was nice.

I got home and began to watch The Holiday. I don't know why I get sad with love movies.

My mind goes back back back... going back is not that good. Although I lived very very happy moments in my life, all is gone. Going back just invades my self with sadness... and I can't help it feel hopeless. Hope is my motivation and when I lose it I break inside.

Many times I wish I could change my stubborn way of being. I always want to know everything behind the scenes. I look back at all the times I pushed him away... and I think of different things I could have done better... but now it is too late. I'm not sure how I feel about second chances. I feel they are never as good as the first one. I've always said, what is meant to be it will be... we just gotta stay strong, head held up high... and don't let your surroundings break us down. We each live the life we want to live.

Thank God for Ari, she is my shoulder and the one person who understands me. We help each other fight our own demons *sigh*... but today I feel better. Just another week at begin at work.

The goo goo dolls place me in a different world... a happy world

Dentro mi botella de cerveza...

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better days to come

I took Sofia on a train ride.... She was sooooo excited! She loved it.

We walked walked and walked. Another movie being filmed on the streets of L.A.

There is nothing better than spending time with Sofia when my brain flows with stupid thought. I hate feeling like a bad person, because I am not. I just place myself on the worst surroundings. Don't ask me how or why but I do. I just know that I never did anything wrong and we should all take responsibility for the words that come out of our mouth.

Amazing design... and the planning continues...

This week will be difficult but I'll manage, I always do! and that is what I love about me, I always get back up no matter how many times I fall. You can never give up! never ever ever!

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I've been left... behind

I am excited of all the upcoming events! I need to get it moving with the baby shower, Sofia's third birthday and Alma's wedding plans! ah 'n' Sil's upcoming wedding. I have a date with her this weekend, it will be nice after not hanging out in over a year.


I've been right, I've been left
I've been wrong, I've been left behind
I've been up but mostly down



....seriously! *sigh*

tick-tock

Remember 2010

Mas del 2010... porque nunca tube tiempo para contarlo...

Shopping, mucho shopping... el shopping me hace feliz! muy muy feliz!!

Las calles de L.B... no me gustan... son muy frias... Long Beach en si es una ciudad muy fria

yum yum miso soup... its the best, sushi itself is the best.... delicious!

Relax, calm down... it's not that serious... ;)

These fools dragged me to South Central... just to see la lucha libre... jaja good day.

una de esas noches perdida en el York

ella... cuando oficialmete cumplio 27... y le regale la famosa fuji instantania que tanto queria :)

ella cuando cumplio 24....jaja y solo queria burgers in the backyard con todas sus sistas!

una linda fuente en Pasadena

te invito a contar todas las palmas de L.A.... your in?

SCARY!

..... tan tan!

Bienvenido el 2011.... este es mi a-no! lo predije desde hace un a-no....

.Y continua el blog....

Merry Christmas 2010

So so glad this year is finally coming to an end.

I hope everyone enjoys this wonderful holiday.

Tonight I will sip wine, give thanks for every wonderful soul who is part of my life, and make an attempt forget the people who, unfortunately, have crossed my path. I hate dealing with people I can't figure out. People who cannot figure themselves, and in there attempt to do so involve me. What a terrible situation.





Oh I'm really not that bad,but I won't try to help you understand.

See ya folks!

I leave you with Jack. So enjoy! Be safe! and I'll see you when the time is right :)