Friday, July 30, 2010

my homie

This is my bro... his first time with the hookah... he liked it....


Very intelligent, lazy as hell.... dreamer big dreamer just like me... takes him courage to make dreams reality though... wonderful soul... half of what comes out of his mouth is bull... I love him! Amo a mi Waldo

jaja
Esa noche de la hookah conosio a su amor WALDA! era el destino! Era una noche magica haha
...:)

hoy me espera un dia maravilloso!


No dejare que la demanda me arruine! No la dejare!


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Sunday, July 25, 2010

ahhh que bonito

Ahhhh hoy me dieron ganas de enamorarme...

hace un buen tiempo hize una promesa, no volver a enamorar. Ni salir con chavos, nada de planes de conquista, de ilusiones, nada de mariposas en el estomago... la ultima persona me dolio muchisimo y jure no frustrarme de la manera en que lo hize. Como quien dice evitar una situacion ijual. Pero hoy pienso un poco diferente. Hoy quiziera volver a tener alguien, una persona que me aga sentir especial. Soy caprichosa y me sierro yo misma, sin darme oportunidades. Evitar una relacion con alguien es una escapatoria, la opcion mas facil para no sufrir... pero estar sola causa sufrimiento tambien.

Por hoy no se ve ni una lucesita al fin del tunel... no se ven señas de amor por ningun lado, pero creo es tiempo de abrirme a una posibilida, ah pasado mucho tiempo

Creo que ese sueño que tube hace un par de dias influenza mis pensamientos... me soñe como madre. No lo voy a negar fue un sentimiento muy bonito, me levante con ganas de crear una familia. De tener esa relacion con alguien y de compartir un futuro... todo eso que se a de sentir cuando una mujer es esposa y madre... me dieron muchas ganas, pense que ya se me pasaria como muchas cosas que me pasan por la mente y las dejo escapar, este sueño se a retenido en mi pensamiento.


ahhh malos pensamientos salgan de mi cabeza! ...


Todas las mañanas reviso mi calendario... cada dia que pasa solo me lleva mas serca al dia tan inesperado, mis 24... odio mi cumpleanos... me pongo sentimental como toda una niña!

nos vemos....

Sunday, July 18, 2010

E.V.!

This song is for my bro... my carnal aka Waldo

I love this movie...love love love... no me canso de verla!



Mañana me espera un workout intenso.... Oh man!

...:) Una semana mas!!!

Sunday, July 11, 2010

time to grow

Somethings just don't matter like they did one day. My world has come to a reality... things are just not how I imagined. There is a huge chance that what I once thought would naturally come to me won't. Things don't happen that way. I may never see greener grass, this may be as green as it gets!

There is nothing easy about me, that's just the way I was made.


They just don't make them like they use to.

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Wednesday, July 7, 2010

I know you want to....

I know you want to! Jump up in the air and stay there!!!

I know you want to...
....jump up in the air and stay there!
Something musta gotten in me!!
I know you want to!
Church neva felt this good before!
I know you wanna reach a higher level, much further than the devil...
I know you want to....


Jump up in the air and stay there!
I don't give a fuck!
We are on the ceiling stuck!
Like a fan full of dust!
We spending like crazy!
Fui super feliz esa noche!!! Tome chardonnay! La bebida perfecta para un concierto de BADU! El Greek theater fue el lugar perfecto bajo el cielo, un rico vino, Badu cantando, la gente prendida!!! AHHHH nunca quiero olvidar ese dia! y no pude haber ido con alguna otra persona perfecta como mi sista!!!

Haste me hize amigas nuevas!.... Bianca, Tina, y Ana (creo)

Ahhhhh... :) esta rollita de su nuevo disco me facina!




Badu... definitivo tengo que volver a verla pronto!!!

Monday, June 28, 2010

estorbando el paso


Sometimes I can't believe people. I can believe why some people ask me for advice. Me... me who is confused on so many things in life, me who is not sure what her values or point of view, me who has shit in her head.

I don't understand why I get all these texts with questions about feelings, questions about love, relationships, and life changing decisions.

And... the worst part is that I don't care. I try my best and put myself in their position, but honestly I can't... People expect you to care when you know they don't care about you.... ahhhh I hate feeling like a bad person, like I don't give a fuck, but I have to be selfish when you know some people in your life aren't forever...

here today, gone tomorrow, SO TRUE!

But on a happy note, I am back in the search to better ways, opening doors to my career, no longer fear the loneliness of the future. You are as lonely as you allow yourself to be :)

I have new ideas and I am excited, I will try my best to gather all the things I need to prepare for the plan of next year, like I have mentioned before... 2011 is MY YEAR!!! hah! magic... not even prayers can same YOU now!

oh oh oh... my dad... 60 now! :)

I have pictures from my recent concert! ahhhh in later post stay tuned!


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Friday, June 11, 2010

5 places before I die



I was thinking and thinking, and I came up with a list of the 5 top places I will go before I die!
No particular order...

Costa Rica

Espana

Australia

Canada

y Cuba

Aqui quedo :) Pero nada es para siempre, nada es definitivo... todo cambia con el viento.... la vida ya esta escrita... todo en la vida esta calcado en piedra, todo todo! todito TODO! Cada elemento! cada mirada, cada sonrisa, cada mueca, cada detalle, solo a que vivir!

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Thursday, June 3, 2010

Winehouse

I started the day off on the right foot... I got pretty for work, I wore one of those cute dresses I used to wear at BCBG. People are different in this new job... so cold. I remember the warmth that my BCBG girls used to give me. I try saying 'goodbye' to people, and some don't even acknowledge that I am trying to say ciao.

Sometimes life is that way, cold. Things like this make me feel sad and lonely. Especially the latest things that have been occurring in my life. Hey! but this is life! and its real! We pretty much get fucked over and the best option is to suck it up and get tougher. How tough can a person get?

I miss my cigarettes, my wine and cigarette nights. But a while back I promised myself to stop the nasty habit. I get scared the smoke will kill my soul along with my lungs jaja

Today someone told me not to drink so much coffee, he said it makes the soul black haha what a piece of mierda! To top it off, I wore all black today. I made his day though.... I made his personal calendar, one that began on Mondays, he has a strong feelings with the week beginning on Sunday jaja we are all crazy in our way. At least I made someone smile :)




You go back to her, and I go back to us....

Good night!





Monday, May 31, 2010

dry martini



....que mal! muy mal! era un juego y ahora es real...



:)

Thursday, May 27, 2010

blue sky

I don't know if I still have faithful readers...

I still write... more than anything for me...


Hoy fue un dia nublado... pense que la nubes me regalarian unas cuantas gotititas de agua, pero no, no se atrevieron....



Hoy escucho rock en spa! Escucho Soda Sterio.... creo porque lo mensionaron en el trabajo. Me llamaron beaner por saber quienes eran jaja....


I think I am one of those people who sends mix symbols, I've been called white washed and a beaner too jajaja... because I try my best with both languages who knows.... I know a lot of both worlds, and at the same time not enough from either one....


Alguna vez una persona me dijo que era una persona muy original, muy feliz, muy yo.... muy leader, no se quizas esa persona me comparaba con alguin mas. Era muy muy muy feliz cuando me lo dijeron, mi persona lo reflejaba. Extrano el estatus emocional que tenia en aquel entonses, pero lo volvere a sentir pronto. jaja Esa misma persona me arruino jajaja but not foreva!!!




Y yo te amare! te amare por siempre!!! Nena no te peines en la cama, que los viajantes se van atrasar.... Wooooooooo yo yooo ohhh ehhhhh eh eh yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa ! y hoy estoy aqui! borracho y loco! y mo corazon IDIOTA siempre brillara! y yo te amare... te amare por siempre!!!

weirdo... i know! haha ahi nos vemos


Lets have a blue moon! :) yum yum!