healing in process

I haven't been writing in the last few days...

I have been spending most of my time with Chave, she goes back to work on monday so we wanted to take advantage of her last days of vacation! I never eat in restaurants and shop like I do when I am with Chave... I like it, but it be better if I had more $ although the sista pays for most of it, THANK YOU I love her for that... siempre me dice "pay me when u r rich!" jaja she wanted to take me to the spa.. but after tax season and finding out she had to pay this yr, AGAIN! ugggh! I said nope!


I've been hiking a lot too, I love it! and with Sofia on my shoulders... ouch! jeje

Changing the topic... last week I went to Venice with Roger aka Enano... he wanted a new tat... but he didn't get it... buuuu! we were there kinda late, and come on Venice beach... get the fuck out of there before the sun sets! seriously.


Roger and I, interesting... I am his pillow, he is not mine (by choice) I don't say much abt my personal life to him... simply cause he is a straight guy... but I do love him! and I am there to listen when ever he needs me... most of the time he asks for my advice... everyone knows I am straight out, u ask me, you will hear it!


and then he tells me I am bitter... his theory, a guy hurt me. He almost got me there too... he almost made me believe it myself, but nope!!!


and then when he made me feel sad, he told me to never change who I am! be strong! bull bull.... idk....


Do ppl really have to change to be liked? fake yourself to be like everyone else?
idk... I am who I am, culera if you want to call it.


Oh and just for the record... I am not bitter, simply hurt and it is taking me longer than I hoped for me to heal...


so... that is it for today... Oh and my new sun glasses, thank ya baby for buying them for me, I LOVE them! the guy who sold them to Ro thought we were a couple... jaja yeah, if that was the case... WW 3!

I am almost 24... I am starting to realize life is shorter than I thought.... yesterday I was just 10!

....dude!

sunny sun

It starts to feel like summer again!


I never really feel I miss one season over the other, but when it is cold for so long, and I see the sun finally coming I realize... I WANT SUNNY DAYS! jaja

So tomorrow I will spend the day at the beach... just tanning and enjoying the sun before the waters come back!

Happy water in the afternoon on a day in the middle of the week, just because there is a bottle and an empty glass is the best happy water ever!!!

....gotta go work bye bye....

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love, again

It's almost here... LOVE!

It comes in different shapes n sizes...






Missing some loves in life... but fosore not all... although missing friends who for X reasons have slowly vanished... more ppl to meet, some friends that are still here stronger than ever! and family who will always be by my side.

for those who are married, for those in a relationship, for those who have friends, those who don't, those who are single, and those who are confused! Whether it is mom, dad, son or a cousin, ur friend of a week or those of 10 yrs.... and of course those who are most easy to love, children and pets!!! happy Vday guys!


Go out and get a drink! or stay in jejeje


...... ;)

Lo ultimo

It was mom's and crazy bro's birthday! getting older by the minute, but hey! that's our nature, remember, wiser! we grow wiser with age!

We took him to BJ's yum! Of course he had his steak!

18, Jesus! my bro is 18! he ain't so lil anymore :(

jaja but I remember the first time he was able to beat me up when we fought... jaja I was abt 14 n he was only 9... It was that day I decided he would be my buddy instead of the "enemy" jaja, I'm a bitch!

I gave him that shirt as a gift, he had been wanting it for a while!

OHHH make a wish! and make sure it's a good one!!!

There he is.... 18! and growing the hair! finally!


and for mom... we did something different... every yr we go out for dinner, this yr we cooked! yikes jeje

N even baked her the cake! it actually turned out pretty good!

idk why Sofia cries every time we sing "happy birthday" song... :( what will happen for her 2nd b-day!?

Then the chicas went out for drinks! finally a drink with mom!!!

Good days!!! I love these days!!!

Von outtttt!!!!

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rain

I like this song! usually everybody gets sad when it rains... nope!!! no being sad due to rain!
It's raining here again.... that's good we need the water!




I bumped in to this girls music and loveeee it! Her voice calms me soo much!

hot chocolate while listening to the sound of rain is the best!


Enjoy!


:)

....(sigh)....

Other bands also sing this song... but Johnny sings it best!!!

So much pain... yet it makes you feel alive at the same time, I think.

... cause everyone we know, will go away, in the END!


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remember

my summer trip to Mexico 09....

A long time ago I wanted to post them and I just never did...

But here they are... my family...

food....

smells....

flavors...

dreams....

children and ealderly.... consider yourself lucky if you get to be old!

moments!

the beginning of new lives...

and those who keep on fucking up the one the one they started....

one trip I will never forget...

I will never undersatnd my obssesion with one day living in this country

the freedom if it I guess... or maybe I just need to get away....

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oh and next week I begin my personal french lessons Bounjour!! je' ma pelle Vonny jeje oh and enrolled in to a weekly yoga class :)

see you guys

smile, for me

Hola!

Today I woke up different... I guess it had been a while since there was silence in my room during the mornings. I like waking up with someone, but at the same time I am so used to waking up, and talking when I am ready.... idk if you get me. Well Fanny left back to her home in Micho, Mex. crossing my fingers that she gets in to a University, but if she doesn't that means that her n I will experience Mexico together, yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaayyyyyyy

Well... I woke up, and silence... darkness, feelings, cold!!! ohhhh why is the heater off? T.V? oh yeah I have one in my room, we would never turn it on... news in English jaja I thought I had forgotten how to speak English...

and I guess it was the coldness in my room that made me remember when I used to be a busyyyy bee.... up n down from L.B to Bell to Commerce to Downey, and back and forward round n round, day after day.... but I don't know how I do it I have always managed to look at the lil things in life...

One of those mornings, it was a Bell to Downey A.M, where I was doing my internship about a year ago. Headed to the detention hall to work with the future big shot criminals jaja (and some how and for some reason I find that interesting)... I walked about 3 blocks to get to the building... next to the D.H. there is a golf park where all the old folks play, all the retired men who have time play every morning...

As I walked and thought to myself, about everything I had to do that day, this older man, in his lil golf cart looked at me, and waved to me, giving me the opportunity to walk before him, and as a way to thank him, I smiled at him... jaja the man responding "well well well... would you look at that, what a beauty of a lady! thank you for your great smile you made my day, now, don't you wash that smile, ever! it would be a crime" jajajaa idk if he was a kiss ass, or just a happy man!

So I realized that a simple smile doesn't cost shit! why don't people smile? they are free, and aside, they make your face glow! jaja so smile! make someones day or simply yours!

I'll leave you with that guys!

..... happy SUNday... it stopped raining, but it is cold as fuck in L.A!

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we can't love each other

You can't love someone without loving yourself!
You can't expect someone to love you without them loving themselves!!!

You can't take him with you, if you don't know where you are going... n vise-versa

Sometimes, part of loving someone is letting go...

Some people were simply just not for you, no matter how real it may seem

One day you'll see the reality!

You can't stop someone, if their dreams don't correlate with yours...

If you doubt, your love is on the border line... better yet, that is not love for you.

When you meet someone, you add them to your dream... they add you to theirs...

If the dreams don't mix... that person must fly, and find someone whose dreams mix... who can create a combination!

How many loves are there? can you make it work with more than one? so much lived with someone, created with someone, they only live in memories!...


Love, difficult topic... especially when one person loves more than the other... n in most cases that does happen...

I just wish he loves me more than I love him.... security maybe... or cause my mom always told me that.."encuentra un hombre que te ame! k te ame mucho, mas k tu lo ames a el"

It's raining.... I love the rain.... It calms me down...

Tonight...

enjoy...... wow!



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