remember

my summer trip to Mexico 09....

A long time ago I wanted to post them and I just never did...

But here they are... my family...

food....

smells....

flavors...

dreams....

children and ealderly.... consider yourself lucky if you get to be old!

moments!

the beginning of new lives...

and those who keep on fucking up the one the one they started....

one trip I will never forget...

I will never undersatnd my obssesion with one day living in this country

the freedom if it I guess... or maybe I just need to get away....

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oh and next week I begin my personal french lessons Bounjour!! je' ma pelle Vonny jeje oh and enrolled in to a weekly yoga class :)

see you guys

smile, for me

Hola!

Today I woke up different... I guess it had been a while since there was silence in my room during the mornings. I like waking up with someone, but at the same time I am so used to waking up, and talking when I am ready.... idk if you get me. Well Fanny left back to her home in Micho, Mex. crossing my fingers that she gets in to a University, but if she doesn't that means that her n I will experience Mexico together, yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaayyyyyyy

Well... I woke up, and silence... darkness, feelings, cold!!! ohhhh why is the heater off? T.V? oh yeah I have one in my room, we would never turn it on... news in English jaja I thought I had forgotten how to speak English...

and I guess it was the coldness in my room that made me remember when I used to be a busyyyy bee.... up n down from L.B to Bell to Commerce to Downey, and back and forward round n round, day after day.... but I don't know how I do it I have always managed to look at the lil things in life...

One of those mornings, it was a Bell to Downey A.M, where I was doing my internship about a year ago. Headed to the detention hall to work with the future big shot criminals jaja (and some how and for some reason I find that interesting)... I walked about 3 blocks to get to the building... next to the D.H. there is a golf park where all the old folks play, all the retired men who have time play every morning...

As I walked and thought to myself, about everything I had to do that day, this older man, in his lil golf cart looked at me, and waved to me, giving me the opportunity to walk before him, and as a way to thank him, I smiled at him... jaja the man responding "well well well... would you look at that, what a beauty of a lady! thank you for your great smile you made my day, now, don't you wash that smile, ever! it would be a crime" jajajaa idk if he was a kiss ass, or just a happy man!

So I realized that a simple smile doesn't cost shit! why don't people smile? they are free, and aside, they make your face glow! jaja so smile! make someones day or simply yours!

I'll leave you with that guys!

..... happy SUNday... it stopped raining, but it is cold as fuck in L.A!

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we can't love each other

You can't love someone without loving yourself!
You can't expect someone to love you without them loving themselves!!!

You can't take him with you, if you don't know where you are going... n vise-versa

Sometimes, part of loving someone is letting go...

Some people were simply just not for you, no matter how real it may seem

One day you'll see the reality!

You can't stop someone, if their dreams don't correlate with yours...

If you doubt, your love is on the border line... better yet, that is not love for you.

When you meet someone, you add them to your dream... they add you to theirs...

If the dreams don't mix... that person must fly, and find someone whose dreams mix... who can create a combination!

How many loves are there? can you make it work with more than one? so much lived with someone, created with someone, they only live in memories!...


Love, difficult topic... especially when one person loves more than the other... n in most cases that does happen...

I just wish he loves me more than I love him.... security maybe... or cause my mom always told me that.."encuentra un hombre que te ame! k te ame mucho, mas k tu lo ames a el"

It's raining.... I love the rain.... It calms me down...

Tonight...

enjoy...... wow!



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non-sense

Hai eventos en la vida que se quedan calcados en ti....

personas que no se olvidan...

comentarios que te afectan (buenos o malos)...

olores que te llevan millas lejos de donde te encuentras!

caras extranas...

risas que te contajian...

sometimes I wish I could read the future... just to cut the bullshit....

es tan dificil encontrar una media naranga en L.A....

o quisas me ago la k busco y me ago pendeja!

I shoud stop looking.... but I honestly don't look... then that means I should start looking?

so oh so hard to explain...

I want to learn french... maybe cause its the language of love jaja o porque quiero aprender algo nuevo...

aside, trying new things prevent alzheimers....

I should stop trying to figure out everything.... some things don't have an explanation...

I need to stop reading people..... cause some ppl aren't even worth my time!

I'm OUT!!!!


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2010!

Here we go again....

another yr...

more hopes and dreams!

more to thank for and more to work for

another chance to start freshhhh


Alma got mad at me cause I feel it in my heart that this yr won't be good... my 09 was pretty good! I graduated... now looking for a job. Things need to get worst before they get better... 2011 is my yr!

jaja I know I am weird, but I will try to make the best out of it anyway.

This year i will....

Travel to Guadalajara to visit Fany!
Eat better and lose the fat.... slowly but surely, I don't stress over it though...
Meet interesting souls
get my career started!
Help my brother start the adult life
shop less (major problem)
wear my anti-wrinkle cream EVERY night!
not talk so much mierda like I do
have some beers with my mom (good luck to me!)
Give up trying to do the impossible
meet a handsome boy jaja
and... cry less... fo-sore cry less!


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feliz navidad!

oh.... feliz navidad a todos! salud paz y amor mucho mucho amor, a k sentirnos vivos!




me regalaron el cd de pearl jam... the new one! Roger mi amigocho thanks! por el cd y la movie me facinaron! weeeiiiii.....

Aun es christmas, me voy a ver la movie in to the wild!

enjoy this song.....Pearl Jam!!!

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ideas nuevas

es inevitable... siempre me questiono sobre el futuro. Casi nunca tomo decisiones sin seguridad. Les explico, siempre que decido algo en mi vida es porque lo analizo, y casi estoy segura de los resultados! Pero hace tiempo tengo algo en mente, y no e tenido los huevos de hacerlo! Pero si lo e pensando por tanto tiempo y me tiene loca! y siempre regresa porque no lo ago!

me inspire... oh mejor dicho me inspiraron, una chica de N.Y me dio una patadita!!!

el otro dia trabajaba, y una chica me pregunta el precio de un gorrito... linda la chica, de raza morena. Ya le dije que el gorro estaba a 29 dolares y mas apatrte un descuento de 15% por la navidad... se lo ponia y se lo ponia... y le deje, "don't think abt it so much take it, it looks great!" me explicaba que le facinaba pero originalmente era para una amiga boricua en Nueva York. Oh! le contesto yo... no agarramos charlando, ella me platicaba que ella es de N.Y y sorprenderia a su mama para la navidad! La chica me inspiro confiansa! y le platique la idea loca que tenia en mente y como me queria mudar!... yo le pregunte que como se le hacia un cambio tan radical! y muchas otras cosas... Cuando le dije que me queria mudar me dijo "DO IT!" es la primera persona que me dice do it! ella lo hizo... porque yo no podria? ademas yo tengo plan! me iria con trabajo.... ayyy si lo quiero hacer me quiero mudar! y ya tengo esta idea por varios anos....

si me da miedo! pero ya soy grandesita! y siempre tendre mi home in L.A... gente nueva! calles nuevas! ideas nuevas! ohhh si es loca la idea pero lo quiero hacer!

llenere la applicasion ASAP este es mi ano para cambiar!

.... yes! tengo muchas ganas de vivir!!!!!! freeeeeee like a bird freeeeee...

If my honey come back...

sometime! sometime! sometime!





I love this beat! I love his weird music... makes no sense but great beats!


if my honey come back!

sometime SOMETIME!


... bye bye :)

The holidays

Here we come... holidays of 2009!

they call me the grinch! Niaccccaaaa niacccaaaa....

They make me sad... all the ppl, the holiday songs, the fake plastic tress.... ohhhhh I wish I believed in Santa. Everything seems so cold... and ppl miss the point of the holidays.

We get to see people we don't really like, and gain weight....

She makes them better.... the holidays are for her....

hahaha she makes me crazy... holiday crazyyyyy

Look mammas! and to our left we can see cottonhill.... the lady I was telling you abt that drinks too much of that holly water jaja

Stickers stickers they r everywhere on me on her my car, the walls there are stickers all over the walls.... ehhhh let her be she is a child!

Muah..... now holiday shopping, and mangoniadas in Highland Park, best mangoniadas ever!

If your get sad like me during the holidays... don't worry it's normal, I think.... jejeje

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