E.V.!

This song is for my bro... my carnal aka Waldo

I love this movie...love love love... no me canso de verla!



Mañana me espera un workout intenso.... Oh man!

...:) Una semana mas!!!

time to grow

Somethings just don't matter like they did one day. My world has come to a reality... things are just not how I imagined. There is a huge chance that what I once thought would naturally come to me won't. Things don't happen that way. I may never see greener grass, this may be as green as it gets!

There is nothing easy about me, that's just the way I was made.

They just don't make them like they use to.

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I know you want to....

I know you want to! Jump up in the air and stay there!!!

I know you want to...

....jump up in the air and stay there!

Something musta gotten in me!!

I know you want to!

Church neva felt this good before!

I know you wanna reach a higher level, much further than the devil...

I know you want to....

Jump up in the air and stay there!

I don't give a fuck!

We are on the ceiling stuck!
Like a fan full of dust!

We spending like crazy!

Fui super feliz esa noche!!! Tome chardonnay! La bebida perfecta para un concierto de BADU! El Greek theater fue el lugar perfecto bajo el cielo, un rico vino, Badu cantando, la gente prendida!!! AHHHH nunca quiero olvidar ese dia! y no pude haber ido con alguna otra persona perfecta como mi sista!!!

Haste me hize amigas nuevas!.... Bianca, Tina, y Ana (creo)

Ahhhhh... :) esta rollita de su nuevo disco me facina!

Badu... definitivo tengo que volver a verla pronto!!!

estorbando el paso

Sometimes I can't believe people. I can believe why some people ask me for advice. Me... me who is confused on so many things in life, me who is not sure what her values or point of view, me who has shit in her head.

I don't understand why I get all these texts with questions about feelings, questions about love, relationships, and life changing decisions.

And... the worst part is that I don't care. I try my best and put myself in their position, but honestly I can't... People expect you to care when you know they don't care about you.... ahhhh I hate feeling like a bad person, like I don't give a fuck, but I have to be selfish when you know some people in your life aren't forever...

here today, gone tomorrow, SO TRUE!

But on a happy note, I am back in the search to better ways, opening doors to my career, no longer fear the loneliness of the future. You are as lonely as you allow yourself to be :)

I have new ideas and I am excited, I will try my best to gather all the things I need to prepare for the plan of next year, like I have mentioned before... 2011 is MY YEAR!!! hah! magic... not even prayers can same YOU now!

oh oh oh... my dad... 60 now! :)

I have pictures from my recent concert! ahhhh in later post stay tuned!

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5 places before I die

I was thinking and thinking, and I came up with a list of the 5 top places I will go before I die!
No particular order...

Costa Rica

Espana

Australia

Canada

y Cuba

Aqui quedo :) Pero nada es para siempre, nada es definitivo... todo cambia con el viento.... la vida ya esta escrita... todo en la vida esta calcado en piedra, todo todo! todito TODO! Cada elemento! cada mirada, cada sonrisa, cada mueca, cada detalle, solo a que vivir!

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Winehouse

I started the day off on the right foot... I got pretty for work, I wore one of those cute dresses I used to wear at BCBG. People are different in this new job... so cold. I remember the warmth that my BCBG girls used to give me. I try saying 'goodbye' to people, and some don't even acknowledge that I am trying to say ciao.

Sometimes life is that way, cold. Things like this make me feel sad and lonely. Especially the latest things that have been occurring in my life. Hey! but this is life! and its real! We pretty much get fucked over and the best option is to suck it up and get tougher. How tough can a person get?

I miss my cigarettes, my wine and cigarette nights. But a while back I promised myself to stop the nasty habit. I get scared the smoke will kill my soul along with my lungs jaja

Today someone told me not to drink so much coffee, he said it makes the soul black haha what a piece of mierda! To top it off, I wore all black today. I made his day though.... I made his personal calendar, one that began on Mondays, he has a strong feelings with the week beginning on Sunday jaja we are all crazy in our way. At least I made someone smile :)




You go back to her, and I go back to us....

Good night!

dry martini

....que mal! muy mal! era un juego y ahora es real...


:)

blue sky

I don't know if I still have faithful readers...

I still write... more than anything for me...


Hoy fue un dia nublado... pense que la nubes me regalarian unas cuantas gotititas de agua, pero no, no se atrevieron....



Hoy escucho rock en spa! Escucho Soda Sterio.... creo porque lo mensionaron en el trabajo. Me llamaron beaner por saber quienes eran jaja....


I think I am one of those people who sends mix symbols, I've been called white washed and a beaner too jajaja... because I try my best with both languages who knows.... I know a lot of both worlds, and at the same time not enough from either one....


Alguna vez una persona me dijo que era una persona muy original, muy feliz, muy yo.... muy leader, no se quizas esa persona me comparaba con alguin mas. Era muy muy muy feliz cuando me lo dijeron, mi persona lo reflejaba. Extrano el estatus emocional que tenia en aquel entonses, pero lo volvere a sentir pronto. jaja Esa misma persona me arruino jajaja but not foreva!!!




Y yo te amare! te amare por siempre!!! Nena no te peines en la cama, que los viajantes se van atrasar.... Wooooooooo yo yooo ohhh ehhhhh eh eh yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa ! y hoy estoy aqui! borracho y loco! y mo corazon IDIOTA siempre brillara! y yo te amare... te amare por siempre!!!

weirdo... i know! haha ahi nos vemos


Lets have a blue moon! :) yum yum!

Updates!

Sofia- habla mas que nunca! Her first time at a theater! (this was her being ready!) Vimos la de Shrek! Which I recommend fo-sho!!! Everyone tells me she is a mini-me! personality and looks jaja Chequen sus un-as... every Friday we do our nails together :)

Alma- Probable transition of jobs, finished her semester! hot like always!

The big Man!- He still has pain on his left shoulder... taking medication but the pain won't go away. We still argue over the dumbest shit.

Enano- Working hard, promising me stupid stuff we will never really do, and applying for his Masters.

Fan- Praying she makes it this year in to a school. Boy crazy.

Letty- Selling Avon. I haven't seen her, but we talk almost everyday!

Mom- Sleepy all the time, still obsessed with her bad ass garden!

Omar- Tired of the cafe!!! Trying to make it in this hell economy!

Vicky, Rosalinda, Edgar!-Graduates, class of 2010! Congrats to all my friends!

Chave- Living the fast life, not analyzing the beauty around her. Working on her patients with Sofie.

Ari- in school, working out, dieting, dating a brother lol

Dan- txts too much, dating a homie from my hood

Brother Bear- Stressed with school, hanging out with his homies, living mad due to not owning a car! ugh whateva!

Chito- will finish school in about a month! she will officially be able to cut my hair!



Vonny- suena sin poder convertir algunos suenos en realidad, mierda!

"hablo solo, bebo te, tomo notas para hacer de mi vida sin ti algo habitable. Leo entera la razon, hoy desarme la television, tarareando una cancion insoportable! Asi pues, cuando no tengas nada que hacer y YO pase por tu cabeza nadien podra oirte, asi que piensa en mi como si me quisieras.... que mal! muy mal! pero que mal, fatal! era un suen-o, y ahora es real!... esto es cosas de locos" Oh I love this song... :)

como me gusta cuando el cielo se transporta despacito, haciendolo de tal manera, cual no quiziera que nadie note como trata de escapar... pero yo lo noto, siempre lo noto...

Me voy.... hoy es un dia de fiestas en mi loco mundo.


..... I still love green! and still hate raisins!

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Jazz

Hola a todos!



Ultimamente me siento incomoda, e estado subiendo de peso desde que tengo este nuevo trabajo. Y estoy confundida sobre como bajar las libritas de mas. Nunca e sido fanatica del gym, se que me escuchare sangrona, pero el saber que otra gente a usado las maquinas me da asco. Como que el sudor de ellos me da los lliguiballuigis! jaja que mamona, lo se.


Ahora trabajo en Long beach, la montana esta en Hollywood me la pasaria en el freeway todo el dia, tratando de llegar para ir hiking. Lo unico que me gusta hacer es mi yoga y hiking, y de otra manera el ejercision no me llama mucho la atencion. Maybe I should consider bike riding or running on the track close by.... then that means shopping for running shoes jaja :)



Me e sentido bien, sola pero bien, trato de mantenerme ocupada para no sentirme sola. I have alway said there is a difference between being alone and feeling lonely.



Ultimamente me la paso ojeado un libro que me prestaron... basado en un tu fecha de nacimiento te dice la vida que sueles vivir, es interesante. Yo soy 37/10... el 10 es lucky number segun, tengo un inner gift, Sofia y Ari tambien. Somos super cool jeje



Feliz dia de las mamis a todas las mamis, aun no se que le voy hacer a mi mami. Creo que le regalare una flor... buscare una bonita, una muy unica! No regalo! Solo su flor y una tarjeta, las palabras describen mas, por lo menos para mi si, es mucho mas facil expresarme por escrito que verbal. Quisas es malo, pero suelo portarme de una manera sangrona, cuando en verdad pienso diferente.

Traigo esa song de pink floyd en la cabeza la que dice hello hello hello... is there anybody out there? ...

Me gusta trabajar los Domingos... solita en la oficina pocas llamadas, y despues de un rato se pone la banda de Jazz en el piso de abajo a tocar, y yo solo me la paso pensando y pensando en los "what if's"... esos what if's q me matan... me gusta estar solita... me gusta pensar en la vida, y mi proposito en este mundo... me gusta recordar los momentos especiales que e vivido, jaja me gusta recordar las pendejadas que hize, y los sentimientos que sentia. Ahora trato de empezar recuerdos nuevos


:)