mi mejor amigo

Ultimamente mi mejor amigo es mi Carnal... jaja Who would have thought.... we always have something to talk about... it's amazin how life works, there was a point in our lives where we could not stand each other. It wasn't until we arelized life is a lil better when we live it together, sharing and laughing together.


Although I do get scared.. I know he has never really liked the US and his heart is in Mexico, I fear him leaving... :( I hate thinking about it...

But you know what... he had told me he didn't want to continue his education, he wanted to take time off before he realized what his purpose in life was, which i completly understand and respect, but the other day he was telling me about attending Cerritos! weeeeeiiiiii :) I think he is going to college... listo es, he is super smart he is just lazy! not only that but it is true... we are expected to decide what we want to study, to lock ourselves to a career path at the age of 18! C'on! I look at a year back and I change every day! Every day i try to live and learn more! and that's just our nature....

He loves history and English... He reads... haha he reads a escondidas! so no one will see him but he reads... A while back I was reading "Mujeres en Conquista" by Cuauhtemoc... and he told me.... "Your reading it? It's ok, I expected more" Y yo... whata!?!? he read it? when? where? I don't know why he would hide it, but he does.... I like being around the fucker jeje siempre hai risas con el, habeses no se de donde saca tanta pendejada!

Ohhh y mi chulita! Ya esta bien grande! ya hasta habla! "mas" "agua" "bird" "ball" oh ya dice mucho!!! ella muy bilingue la chiquilla! la estoy haciendo hippie como yo jeje Well I'm not one, but ppl think I have an odd style of dressing and being.... como mi morral! haha Juan se la cura con mis ideas, maldito! muak lo amo!


bye bye.... smile everyone, you will look cutter! trust me :))))

Natalia

Ella siempre con sus canciones fuera de lo comun, por eso me gusta... Y dice mucha verdad! Acaba de producir un nuevo C.D pero la cancion que la dio a conoser en mi corazon fue con la En el 2000!






ya no soy aquella nina infantil! Ahora siente el corazon!!! PERO mi inosencia no se acabo! :)



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A change, it's called 23!!!

Ugh! my body hurts.... I think I'm hitting another stage in life... Yeah you know, when you go from a girl to young lady, you get your period, your boobs grow, your hormones are like a roller coaster ect.. all those sweet things that happen hahaha.... pues si is there a change that we go from young lady to a 23 yr old!!! My period is changing haha (sorry boys) but I gotta let it out! I was so used to my period every month for 3-4 days that was it! easy work, normal no stomach pain, nothing! But now... Jesus Christ!!! I get pain and cramps 3 days before, as if I had it already but no! now i get a preview then comes hell...

I asked Alma she said it gets worst I guess by the time I hit 26 I will get hot flashes too! I kid you not, straight from the older sisters mouth... Not looking forward to that!

Let's see, I'll change it up a bit, period is not something everyone wants to read abt... we'll I've been here in L.A just no new laptop yet... therefore no pictures either, oh I know what I'll do hang on....

... there I wanted to show you my new hair band, my amigocha RUTH me la regalo, she brought it from Mexico, I love it! she always gives me the best things! SIEMPRE!!!

I will try to get my new computer after my trip Dinuba, which isn't really a trip, but a must do, you see my dads older sister passed this last week, and I will go for the funeral... Cancer, what a fucked up illness! But you know what.... My aunt was able to kill skin cancer, and cancer in her throat, it was the liver cancer that she couldn't survive, may she rest in peace... i know my dad is going through a lot right now... I hate ending this blog on such a harsh topic :- (

But I must depart... stay tune, I swear interesting pixs are on there way... a special thanks to Rosalinda who always finds the positive side to life... and soon I'll get a job where I put my B.S in action! Oh one more thing! apparently I graduated with honors from L.B, I didn't even know till I got a certificate from the president of the University saying I was on his honor list, pretty cool huh! I want to frame it, for some reason I am really proud of it! more than the diploma... maybe cause I already knew I would earn my diploma, but the certificate wow, I didn't expect that one :) congrats to me! jaja I'm not showing off, I'm just a tad proud of me!

ok see you folks!

n remember when life gives you lemons... drink a beer! haha

Chamomile tea is what I will drink, Sorry to all girls who have to deal with the monthly cramps! shhhh it happens when you turn 23! haha n at 26 hot flashes take a note! beware! haha I'm kidding I have no idea, I'm just making things up as they come to mind....

CHIO!

hoy

Hoy es otro dia guevon!

otro dia de nada... me levante a llevar la comp a la casa de sil, esta infectada de no se que, el caso que ya no prende... estoy en comp ajena buuuu! aqui con mi carnala, pero extrano la mia....extrano mis fotos y todas mis pertenencias... aun tengo fotos de Mexico que quiero subir, pero sin comp es dificil... tambien tengo carnala nueva! jaja

es hija de un tia que vive en Mexico, un dia subi fotos de esa tia, la de la batucada jaja, por hoy su hija vive conmigo por lo menos un par de meses, despues se regresa a estudia farmatologa algo y algo wow! jaja

ah y la foto... fue robada, la tomo la morena no si en donde ni cuando pero me gusto jajajaja

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for the 1st time

I don't have a plan... for the 1st time i don't know where i will be tomorrow or in a yr or in the next 10 years! i was always to used to the plan! My problem now is that i didn't plan after my education... well i did. I planned to buy a house a better car, and to marry and have a family... y como diria la Danny " what a bunch of bullshit!" I realize it is! My life went from 100 to zero from one day to the other...


I was gone for a while, to only come back to the same problems... I ran out of plans... and I'm scared I don't know why... I don't know what is next... I don't know what to expect, I don't know what to prepare for! When I feel this way i hear this.... cause I can't live life scraed... I want to live day by day like the name of my blog :)




And like I read in a friends blog... "Jesus didn't say life would be easy, just that it would be worth it" or something like that... the message is the same!

I'll post picture from my trip as soon as I get a chnace... see you all!!!!


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jaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa jajajajaja ajajajaja que feo cuando se burlan en tu face! jajjaaaaaaaaaaaa jajajajajaja jaaaaaaaaajajajajaja ajajajaja

ya regrese a mi casa con unos sentimientos confusos e dificil de explicar! Me gusto! extrañe mi house mi camita... pero que bonito es regresar a un lugar! que bonito es olvidar momentariamente!

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one more thing

before I leave to my trip....






No image... just listen, love it, feel it!

ok now I'm really off to a new world!


la la lala aha ha ha!!! weeeeeiiiii!!!! yayaya!!!

Adios

Nomas paso rapidisimo para decir adios! me voy a mi ranch a ver a mi otra mitad de family! extrañare blogging.... but I will be back soon so stay tuned!!!

... pasenla chido!

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four agreements

Despues de todo lo que e pasado este ultimo año me pregunto... sera que todos los viejos son ijuales? si si todos son ijual de culeros y egoistas!!! que solo llenan su corazon ignorando al sexo femenino!?!? lo confirme y si es verdad! y ya no me importa una relasion como siempre la quize, porque ahora llego a la conclusion que todos los viejos son unos culeros estupidos injustos! Que todo eso que pensaba de un hombre no existe! porque son fantasias que las chikas nos creamos en la mente! y solo buscamos lala land! y el dia que llega un boy nos damos cuenta que todo lo que esperabamos era una mentira!!! una bil mentira creada por la sociedad! El punto es... que los hombres son cabrones, sin importar si son gordos, flacos, altos. chaparros, viejos, jovenes, negros, blancos, anaranjados!!! todos valen madre! todos son culeros!

Y despues de todo aun respiro! despues de el dolor, me paro y camino! porque yo si tengo mis four agreements!!! EVERYBODY! if you want to liberate yourself! you gotta read it the Four Agreements! It's like being born again, and this time you never lose you childhood! You never lose your mind and give society what they want! you live for you! no one else but you! You live the most magical dreams you've had! (NO i'm not high! read the book and you'll understand what I'm talking about!)

Hoy mi estatus es: hopeful!!!

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It's amazing

I'm amazing! I amaze myself





Not in a good way... it's amazing my power of mind and the capasity I have to be able to detach people from life with such easiness. I do it all the time, since I can remember. I have so many ex people in my life, ex b/f ex friends... it doesn't take much for me to cut people out! I can live without talking to people I have had close relationships with... Some people say these are grudges. Yeah like if I hold grudges and I can't forgive or forget. I'm not sure that is correct in my case. I feel that someone has done something to hurt me, I have nothing to forgive them... It was their personal choice to attempt to hurt me, but it's not that easy to hurt someone like me... I just forget! I forget that that person ever did anything bad to me.... that the person ever existed. Their wrongful, thought, action, or says reflect them not me! So why should I worry of such people. I simply forget there was a friendship, and move on. I get no desire to talk to some people again. How cold is that? But I don't care.. I don't know why... I guess I know that there is a reason for evey thing and if people were good with me to begin I wouldn't detach YOU with such easiness....



Then it's a reflection of others not me... no no no no not me fosure not me... cause I at the end, I'm the one who keeps laughing!!! HAHAHA HAHAHA





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