I wonder...

I wonder... I wonder so much sometimes... I wonder too much too often...
I wonder if I'll ever get my tree tat... I wonder where I'll live in 5 years... I wonder when I'll get a real job... I wonder what it is to give birth... if I will get the chance to be a mother... why the girl from the other day gave me a free coke... why I'm so scared of insects... I wonder if the grass is really greener on the other side... I wonder if I have already felt love but just never bothered to pay attention... I wonder when my last first kiss will be... I wonder if my parents are really gonna move to Mexico in a couple of yrs... I wonder if I picked the right career... I wonder if I will be long time friends with any of the friends I already have... I wonder what my soul mate is doing while I write this... I wonder if in 10 yrs he will still think of me the way he says does now (sigh)... I wonder if I will ever plant a tree inside my house... I wonder if I will travel the world like I always said I would... and if I do with who... I wonder if anyone bothers reading my nonsense... I wonder what ethnicity my husband will be... I wonder if I will ever get married in the 1st place... I wonder what it feels to live under the sea like Ariel :)... I wonder what it feels to jump from tree to tree like Tarzan!I wonder I wonder I wonder... if I will ever stop wondering... I wonder if my mom and I will live in the same country when I get older... I wonder why I love the rain soooooooooooo much... I wonder why some feeling are so easy to fade away and other are eternal... I wonder if ppl understand my point of view, not that I care if they do or not, but do they see the way I do... I wonder if I will ever have to stop worrying abt money... I wonder why so many ppl divorce... I wonder why my parent stuck pt so many yrs... HAAAAA... I wonder where I will live most of my life.... if probation is even my thing... if I will go back for a masters... If there is such a thing as love.... If life will give a 360 for me..... If I will be welcomed at Carol's house in a couple of yrs... if Obama will will presidency... If Alma will sell her art, if she will ever create her art like one day she did :(... I wonder if Sil is still willing to open a business together... I wonder if he will always remember.... If it's true that something better is always right around the corner... (BUT when do you know that the best already came, and you just let it pass by?) If my More will go live in Mexico with Omar... (sigh)... I wonder if my bro will go to school...

I wonder I wonder I wonder so much... why we can't have wings to fly or fins to swim with... I wonder what aliens think of us.... I wonder what my live would have been if I would have been raised in Mexico.... I wonder what life would have been if I would have never meet him... I wonder why I love grapes yet hate raisins... I wonder why a glass of wine or a beer always calms me down... I wonder why I think the way I do... I wonder I wonder... I wonder how many think I'm crazy!.... I wonder I wonder.... haha I wonder if a boy will ever be able to stand my crazy imagination, and my definition of happiness.... I wonder why so many ppl get caught up in materialistic things when in reality the heart is what we should maintain rich.... I wonder I wonder.... I wonder what my Sofia's voice will sound like when she talks... I wonder what the lives of the girls I work with will look in 10 yrs... I wonder why we understood each other too late... Just a little too late....

I wonder... I wonder to much too often....

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