stop swinging by my window dream!

Sometimes it all feels unreal, unatural, like a fairy tail...

Like any moment I will open my eyes and wake up from the dream...

Why do I dream? why do I dream the past... wait, but the dream catcher is up!.... what's up with that?

Then it's not a nightmare... it's just a dream, right?

They don't seem like nightmares but they are still horrible!

can dreams mean something?

It's like natural life bitting me in the ass!

Is it really true that if you dream someone they dream you? or they are thinking of you?

I think its true, wait... I want it to be true, it works to my advantage!

Do you dream me too?

How will I know.... How much of my dreams are true...

I've heard stories.... I can confirm that someone elses dreams are true.... But can someone confirm mine?

Please oh oh will someone confirm mine....

Don't you tell me you are mad now!!!

Don't break my heart that way!

not today

not anyday...

If I ask about the dream will you answer?

Baby don't leave me hanging.... answer the dreams... But if they are nightmares in real life.... get away from me negativity!!!



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wear sunscreen!

Watch this!!!




Isn't awesome!?.... get's you thinking huh....


good day!!! go do something that scares you!


hah y se rie de mi porque quiero un tat de un tree... F U ignornte... better than your tramp stamp!


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1st rain of the yr

me levante algo agobiada.... como si fuera lunes... aun estoy en mi cama. Me levantan a las 6 y pico que si llevo a Juan a la escuela, ok chido. Luego entra mi ma a mi recamara para decirme nevermind, he went walking... in the rain! what walking in the rain to school? oh the rain, the first one of the yr... hopefully it rains a lot this year, it's been dry for the past couple of year. Total, se fue porque mi car no prende... no se que le pasa.... mi manana cancelada!!!

Y luego, me siento mal de nuevo... no se porque no me enfermo bien, o que se me quite la infeccion por complete. la garganta me esta matando, cada vez que paso saliva me arden las glandulas! Lo bueno k es mi dia libre y pienso quedarme en camita todo el dia.... de vez en cunado nos hace bien para pensar, tomarme mi te de manzanilla, y refleccionar lo que voy hacer de mi life. But you know what... I'm hopeful... en todos los aspectos de mi vida. si mando vibras positivas recivire energias positivas, well i like to think!


aki les dejo, ya k no pude ir.... y aun k quisiera con la unica persona que me hubiera gusta ir no se puede por razones estupidas!!!! ugh!


pearl! ese eddy what a talent!





today :hopeful

porque la vida tiene k tener cosas mejores, tiene!!!


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haha

Just to add a lil more to yesterdays topic... Badu got's my back! haha




For those who don't know Badu... she is obviously being sarcastic!



peace homies ehhhhh jaja



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se me olvido

I forgot.... I keep forgetting how to be skanky and slutty! how to have air in my head, and say "like" after every other word! I forgot to make to act ignorant and how not to be myself... I had forgotten what boys "dig" now a days.... fast! everything super fast, because now people have sex before having feelings.... how did we get to this? how do I fit in to this era? Sometimes I feel I should have been born 50 yrs ago.... or in another country... sometimes the U.S life is too fast, and too selfish! Or maybe this is how things are everyone else and i just don't know it.... Being my age is hard.... with the morals my parents gave me....

Ahhhh someone else will come, someone worth my time, someone who is interested in the personality and brain of this lady, and not the body, i am more than a body, and so are you!!!!


this is getting too depressing, positive thoughts!!! one day i will live under the sea! haha

My Ed always brings me happy thoughts... this was on monday, it was his 23rd! welcome to the club baby boo! cheken los posters detras haha i love gay men and gay bars!!! they are so chilllllll...... jaja

nos vemos! animo a todos los k esten single y sufriendo! haha

Un dia llegara uno k quiera saber de ti, y conoser tu personalidad y no solo lo k esta enmedio de las piernas!

fuera dolor!

haaaaaaaaaaahahaha!

today

we have our days... some days we feel happy, sad, angry, frustrated, beautiful!!! fat, skinny, pretty, ugly, loved, lonely, adored, like a child, and old!!!! others satisfied, alive!!! full of life! free liberated! pressured, smart, hard working, and the great feeling of accomplishment!!! there is stressed, and bored!!! thinkable and thankful! uuuu adventurous!!! (days that I call "mission days" haha) annoyed, relaxed, and the good old bitchy days! flirty horny!!! hopeful! and helpful! all all alll ALL these feeling we have! and often we don't even realize, we just feel with out thinking! some days up others down or high n low .... or like radiohead says high and dry!!!!

some days we wake up feeling 20, others 36, then 25, 51, and my favorite feeling 5, 3, 7, and 9!!!

well today i feel like a stupid 13 yr old! who falls for pressure, and not what she stands for! who does things because she is 23 and that is what all 23 yr olds are doing!!! I made a mistake, I did! but as the adult I am, I'm fixing what has been done, because I need to feel good about myself!!! I need to love me and what I stand for, and do what my heart tell me and not what he tells me... because at the end if the day I love me more than I love anyone else!!! selfish? yeah maybe, but hey what can I say, you gotta love yourself to be loved!!!


... stupid like a 13yr old never again.... oh hellllll no never again!!!




..... yeah yeah!

FREE hugs

Oh i love this!!! Te regalo uno!?! How much a simple hug can bring so much joy!!! I love hugs, the real ones not the fake ones! the tight and long ones!!! sometimes all we need to cheer us up is one of these!

.............................FREE HUGS...............muah :)

yay yay!

n the song! i love this song!

Happy b-day Sil

Oh we took Sil to celebrate her 27th! ella dice 26 haha I think we should be proud of our age! remember we get wiser with age!

We had dinner at this sushi bar in Pasadena 'Tokyo Wako' yum yum they cook your food right in front of you, and if you ever go you have to try the green tea ice cream, it's the best! The only person who didn't come out in the picture was flaca, who decided to use the restroom....


haha but it's Oscar de la Hoya... he was eating next to us with his wife and friends.... I love L.A you find celebrities jeje

(click on the pix so you can see it bigger)

feliz 2nd 26th birthday!!! alli quedo mis amigos y familia y hasta Oscar jeje


Ay!!!! my throat still huts like a B*** can't wait to be well again.... see you all!







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ella con su nueva comp!

oh! que les cuento :) por fin me compre una nueva comp! ya me hacia falta! con eso que me facina escribir y communicarme con los primos en Mex y todo eso lindo que se puede hacer atravez de una comp! y ahora con el spy hasta verse! que chido, quien iba decir que la technologia avansaria tanto en tan poco tiempo... haha me pongo a pensar como seran las cosas cuando sea viejita??? se van a burlaran los nietos de mi cause i won't keep up with tech! jaja i will always keep up!

solo queria decir eso, k me siento feliz con mi new laptop... ya me hacia falta! y creo k me la meresia, ya estaba enfadada de tener problems con la otra, aunque le agradesco a Sil que me la obsequio!!! she gave me a comp, can you believe that! who does that??? una buena amiga hace eso y mucho mas! thanks chivis eso nunca se me olvida!

es tarde, o temprano? son las 12 y pico de la madrugada... tenia mucho que no me quedaba escribiendo a estas horas....

Goodnight everyone....

oh oh... when you think distance is a problem, and you feel that not having that special someone close is unbearable... think again! as long as two humans communicate and share everyday as much as they can if it's through e-mail, photos, phone calls videos, written letters!!! btw written letters are the best!!!! time will pass and before you know it, that person will be next to you again!!!! by yourside! because always always remember, if it's meant to be, it WILL be!!!!! i'll leave with that one.

buenas noches!




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mi mejor amigo

Ultimamente mi mejor amigo es mi Carnal... jaja Who would have thought.... we always have something to talk about... it's amazin how life works, there was a point in our lives where we could not stand each other. It wasn't until we arelized life is a lil better when we live it together, sharing and laughing together.


Although I do get scared.. I know he has never really liked the US and his heart is in Mexico, I fear him leaving... :( I hate thinking about it...

But you know what... he had told me he didn't want to continue his education, he wanted to take time off before he realized what his purpose in life was, which i completly understand and respect, but the other day he was telling me about attending Cerritos! weeeeeiiiiii :) I think he is going to college... listo es, he is super smart he is just lazy! not only that but it is true... we are expected to decide what we want to study, to lock ourselves to a career path at the age of 18! C'on! I look at a year back and I change every day! Every day i try to live and learn more! and that's just our nature....

He loves history and English... He reads... haha he reads a escondidas! so no one will see him but he reads... A while back I was reading "Mujeres en Conquista" by Cuauhtemoc... and he told me.... "Your reading it? It's ok, I expected more" Y yo... whata!?!? he read it? when? where? I don't know why he would hide it, but he does.... I like being around the fucker jeje siempre hai risas con el, habeses no se de donde saca tanta pendejada!

Ohhh y mi chulita! Ya esta bien grande! ya hasta habla! "mas" "agua" "bird" "ball" oh ya dice mucho!!! ella muy bilingue la chiquilla! la estoy haciendo hippie como yo jeje Well I'm not one, but ppl think I have an odd style of dressing and being.... como mi morral! haha Juan se la cura con mis ideas, maldito! muak lo amo!


bye bye.... smile everyone, you will look cutter! trust me :))))