today

we have our days... some days we feel happy, sad, angry, frustrated, beautiful!!! fat, skinny, pretty, ugly, loved, lonely, adored, like a child, and old!!!! others satisfied, alive!!! full of life! free liberated! pressured, smart, hard working, and the great feeling of accomplishment!!! there is stressed, and bored!!! thinkable and thankful! uuuu adventurous!!! (days that I call "mission days" haha) annoyed, relaxed, and the good old bitchy days! flirty horny!!! hopeful! and helpful! all all alll ALL these feeling we have! and often we don't even realize, we just feel with out thinking! some days up others down or high n low .... or like radiohead says high and dry!!!!

some days we wake up feeling 20, others 36, then 25, 51, and my favorite feeling 5, 3, 7, and 9!!!

well today i feel like a stupid 13 yr old! who falls for pressure, and not what she stands for! who does things because she is 23 and that is what all 23 yr olds are doing!!! I made a mistake, I did! but as the adult I am, I'm fixing what has been done, because I need to feel good about myself!!! I need to love me and what I stand for, and do what my heart tell me and not what he tells me... because at the end if the day I love me more than I love anyone else!!! selfish? yeah maybe, but hey what can I say, you gotta love yourself to be loved!!!


... stupid like a 13yr old never again.... oh hellllll no never again!!!




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FREE hugs

Oh i love this!!! Te regalo uno!?! How much a simple hug can bring so much joy!!! I love hugs, the real ones not the fake ones! the tight and long ones!!! sometimes all we need to cheer us up is one of these!

.............................FREE HUGS...............muah :)

yay yay!

n the song! i love this song!

Happy b-day Sil

Oh we took Sil to celebrate her 27th! ella dice 26 haha I think we should be proud of our age! remember we get wiser with age!

We had dinner at this sushi bar in Pasadena 'Tokyo Wako' yum yum they cook your food right in front of you, and if you ever go you have to try the green tea ice cream, it's the best! The only person who didn't come out in the picture was flaca, who decided to use the restroom....


haha but it's Oscar de la Hoya... he was eating next to us with his wife and friends.... I love L.A you find celebrities jeje

(click on the pix so you can see it bigger)

feliz 2nd 26th birthday!!! alli quedo mis amigos y familia y hasta Oscar jeje


Ay!!!! my throat still huts like a B*** can't wait to be well again.... see you all!







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ella con su nueva comp!

oh! que les cuento :) por fin me compre una nueva comp! ya me hacia falta! con eso que me facina escribir y communicarme con los primos en Mex y todo eso lindo que se puede hacer atravez de una comp! y ahora con el spy hasta verse! que chido, quien iba decir que la technologia avansaria tanto en tan poco tiempo... haha me pongo a pensar como seran las cosas cuando sea viejita??? se van a burlaran los nietos de mi cause i won't keep up with tech! jaja i will always keep up!

solo queria decir eso, k me siento feliz con mi new laptop... ya me hacia falta! y creo k me la meresia, ya estaba enfadada de tener problems con la otra, aunque le agradesco a Sil que me la obsequio!!! she gave me a comp, can you believe that! who does that??? una buena amiga hace eso y mucho mas! thanks chivis eso nunca se me olvida!

es tarde, o temprano? son las 12 y pico de la madrugada... tenia mucho que no me quedaba escribiendo a estas horas....

Goodnight everyone....

oh oh... when you think distance is a problem, and you feel that not having that special someone close is unbearable... think again! as long as two humans communicate and share everyday as much as they can if it's through e-mail, photos, phone calls videos, written letters!!! btw written letters are the best!!!! time will pass and before you know it, that person will be next to you again!!!! by yourside! because always always remember, if it's meant to be, it WILL be!!!!! i'll leave with that one.

buenas noches!




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mi mejor amigo

Ultimamente mi mejor amigo es mi Carnal... jaja Who would have thought.... we always have something to talk about... it's amazin how life works, there was a point in our lives where we could not stand each other. It wasn't until we arelized life is a lil better when we live it together, sharing and laughing together.


Although I do get scared.. I know he has never really liked the US and his heart is in Mexico, I fear him leaving... :( I hate thinking about it...

But you know what... he had told me he didn't want to continue his education, he wanted to take time off before he realized what his purpose in life was, which i completly understand and respect, but the other day he was telling me about attending Cerritos! weeeeeiiiiii :) I think he is going to college... listo es, he is super smart he is just lazy! not only that but it is true... we are expected to decide what we want to study, to lock ourselves to a career path at the age of 18! C'on! I look at a year back and I change every day! Every day i try to live and learn more! and that's just our nature....

He loves history and English... He reads... haha he reads a escondidas! so no one will see him but he reads... A while back I was reading "Mujeres en Conquista" by Cuauhtemoc... and he told me.... "Your reading it? It's ok, I expected more" Y yo... whata!?!? he read it? when? where? I don't know why he would hide it, but he does.... I like being around the fucker jeje siempre hai risas con el, habeses no se de donde saca tanta pendejada!

Ohhh y mi chulita! Ya esta bien grande! ya hasta habla! "mas" "agua" "bird" "ball" oh ya dice mucho!!! ella muy bilingue la chiquilla! la estoy haciendo hippie como yo jeje Well I'm not one, but ppl think I have an odd style of dressing and being.... como mi morral! haha Juan se la cura con mis ideas, maldito! muak lo amo!


bye bye.... smile everyone, you will look cutter! trust me :))))

Natalia

Ella siempre con sus canciones fuera de lo comun, por eso me gusta... Y dice mucha verdad! Acaba de producir un nuevo C.D pero la cancion que la dio a conoser en mi corazon fue con la En el 2000!






ya no soy aquella nina infantil! Ahora siente el corazon!!! PERO mi inosencia no se acabo! :)



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A change, it's called 23!!!

Ugh! my body hurts.... I think I'm hitting another stage in life... Yeah you know, when you go from a girl to young lady, you get your period, your boobs grow, your hormones are like a roller coaster ect.. all those sweet things that happen hahaha.... pues si is there a change that we go from young lady to a 23 yr old!!! My period is changing haha (sorry boys) but I gotta let it out! I was so used to my period every month for 3-4 days that was it! easy work, normal no stomach pain, nothing! But now... Jesus Christ!!! I get pain and cramps 3 days before, as if I had it already but no! now i get a preview then comes hell...

I asked Alma she said it gets worst I guess by the time I hit 26 I will get hot flashes too! I kid you not, straight from the older sisters mouth... Not looking forward to that!

Let's see, I'll change it up a bit, period is not something everyone wants to read abt... we'll I've been here in L.A just no new laptop yet... therefore no pictures either, oh I know what I'll do hang on....

... there I wanted to show you my new hair band, my amigocha RUTH me la regalo, she brought it from Mexico, I love it! she always gives me the best things! SIEMPRE!!!

I will try to get my new computer after my trip Dinuba, which isn't really a trip, but a must do, you see my dads older sister passed this last week, and I will go for the funeral... Cancer, what a fucked up illness! But you know what.... My aunt was able to kill skin cancer, and cancer in her throat, it was the liver cancer that she couldn't survive, may she rest in peace... i know my dad is going through a lot right now... I hate ending this blog on such a harsh topic :- (

But I must depart... stay tune, I swear interesting pixs are on there way... a special thanks to Rosalinda who always finds the positive side to life... and soon I'll get a job where I put my B.S in action! Oh one more thing! apparently I graduated with honors from L.B, I didn't even know till I got a certificate from the president of the University saying I was on his honor list, pretty cool huh! I want to frame it, for some reason I am really proud of it! more than the diploma... maybe cause I already knew I would earn my diploma, but the certificate wow, I didn't expect that one :) congrats to me! jaja I'm not showing off, I'm just a tad proud of me!

ok see you folks!

n remember when life gives you lemons... drink a beer! haha

Chamomile tea is what I will drink, Sorry to all girls who have to deal with the monthly cramps! shhhh it happens when you turn 23! haha n at 26 hot flashes take a note! beware! haha I'm kidding I have no idea, I'm just making things up as they come to mind....

CHIO!

hoy

Hoy es otro dia guevon!

otro dia de nada... me levante a llevar la comp a la casa de sil, esta infectada de no se que, el caso que ya no prende... estoy en comp ajena buuuu! aqui con mi carnala, pero extrano la mia....extrano mis fotos y todas mis pertenencias... aun tengo fotos de Mexico que quiero subir, pero sin comp es dificil... tambien tengo carnala nueva! jaja

es hija de un tia que vive en Mexico, un dia subi fotos de esa tia, la de la batucada jaja, por hoy su hija vive conmigo por lo menos un par de meses, despues se regresa a estudia farmatologa algo y algo wow! jaja

ah y la foto... fue robada, la tomo la morena no si en donde ni cuando pero me gusto jajajaja

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for the 1st time

I don't have a plan... for the 1st time i don't know where i will be tomorrow or in a yr or in the next 10 years! i was always to used to the plan! My problem now is that i didn't plan after my education... well i did. I planned to buy a house a better car, and to marry and have a family... y como diria la Danny " what a bunch of bullshit!" I realize it is! My life went from 100 to zero from one day to the other...


I was gone for a while, to only come back to the same problems... I ran out of plans... and I'm scared I don't know why... I don't know what is next... I don't know what to expect, I don't know what to prepare for! When I feel this way i hear this.... cause I can't live life scraed... I want to live day by day like the name of my blog :)




And like I read in a friends blog... "Jesus didn't say life would be easy, just that it would be worth it" or something like that... the message is the same!

I'll post picture from my trip as soon as I get a chnace... see you all!!!!


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jaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa jajajajaja ajajajaja que feo cuando se burlan en tu face! jajjaaaaaaaaaaaa jajajajajaja jaaaaaaaaajajajajaja ajajajaja

ya regrese a mi casa con unos sentimientos confusos e dificil de explicar! Me gusto! extrañe mi house mi camita... pero que bonito es regresar a un lugar! que bonito es olvidar momentariamente!

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