Lo que no paso

The trip to NY was canceled for X reason. People don't matter like they did before. In the need to make another change. I don't know what to do with this personality that gets bored of everything. I can't stick to something for too long. It keeps me moving but nothing is ever permanent.

I've always said that I scare myself on how easy it is for me to say good bye to some people. bye bye!

Letty, she is always there! Hello!

Men

MEN MEN MEN MEN MEN MEN MEN MEN MEN MEN MEN MEN MEN MEN MEN MEN MEN MEN MEN MEN MEN MEN MEN MEN MEN MEN MEN MEN MEN MEN ................................. Son insoportables y la misma vez los buscamos........

No me toques las piernas que estoy sensible....

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Someone like You....

Nevermind, I'll find someone like you... Don't forget me, I beg, I remember you said:- "Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead"...

Luego regreso... ya que baje la marea...



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Azul

Always try your best! That way if things don't workout you won't ever have regrets!!!

Now 25! No comments just a lot of thoughts in my head, so many that I don't even know how to explain. Four months till the year ends! I still have a good feeling... interesting conversations that make me think.

Saludos a los q aun leen!

lo inesperado

Mi salud no anda nada bien. Y me entristece pensar lo que puede pasar en un futuro. Todo marchaba tan bien! todo va muy bien con los planes y ahora me topo con esto. No me dejare derrotar, y sere mas fuerte con mi enfermeda! Hare todo lo posible para que todo regrese a la normalida! Fe... esto requiere mucha fe.


Mandenme vibras positibas! las necesito... por muy fuerte que me diga ser.

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keep on moving

El otro dia llegue del trabajo, agobiada como siempre. Usualmente me recuesto a descansar, o me voy a la montana. Pero no se que me dio por leer el diario que comenze hace anos. Back back way back!

Ah y me llevo a momentos muy muy felices, y a la misma vez muy frustrantes. Mi manera de pensar y las ilusiones que expresaba sobre tantas cosas. Vivia en una nube! En un sueno donde todo se basaba en mi. El mundo me valia, solo me importaba encontrar mi felicidad y me expresaba sin control. Cuando me satisfacia ser rebelde. Cuando era una feminista jaja y creia en el amor a primera vista!

Cuando pensaba que todo lo bonito llegaria porque haci era la vida. Que me podia portar cabronamente porque hasta me lo reian siertas personas. Creo que en ese entonses tenia demasiado tiempo. Pensaba demasiado, tenia tiempo de sentarme a planear mi bella vida. No se que es mejor la realista, yo, o la sonadora que todo era chill con una chela y un cigarrillo... jaja cuando todo era Erykah Badu! habeses me extrano...



Regresaria solo un dia... solo si todo fuera exactante como lo escribi... solo en mi punto de vista. La realidad puede ser muy fuerte y dificil de enfrentar ahhh...

jaja y me rio de la manera en que escribia mis eventos. Donde pedia que me pasaran cosas, y cuando me pasaban no las podia crer... y al poco tiempo me frustrabam porque yo misma atraia lo que pasaba. No me arrepiento de nada!!!

Es bonito recordad... siempre y cuando se entienda que el pasado se queda en el pasado. Y que todo pasa por alguna razon. Aunque unas veces sea dificil de entender. Haci es la vida...

Total, Cheers! Escuchen The XX! Basic space... se lo recomiendo!

Note to Self

Every opportunity has an expiration date, never forget it!!! Tengo el blog muy abandonado.

Se arruino mi Olympus, puesto que no tengo camara para tomar fotos nuevas :( q tristesa! Haci que anuncio, un regalo no me cae nada mal jaja

Estoy planeando un viaje para el fin de 2011... me voy directo a NYC! the big apple! y no se podria ir a Nueva York con alguna otra persona mas que con mi Edgar! Eso me hace muy feliz! Tenemos tanto que planear y que mucho que ahorrar.

Muneca me visito en sueno! ahhh que linda es mi bebe me lambia la cara, y mobia sus rabito como ella lo sabia mober. La estran-o tanto! ...

In the back of my head I still think I'll go to Cuba... even if I'm 60.. .

Pack up... I'm straight... Enough

Oh say say say
Oh say say say
Oh say say say

Oh say say say
Oh say say say say... Wait!
They don't love you like I love you
Wait.
They don't love you like I love you
Maps...........
Wait! They don't love you like I love you ....

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Welcome Santiago

Por fin llego Santiago! El 10 de Marzo... muy temprano.

Sofia esta super feliz por la llegada de su nuevo hermanito, me dice "Tia, he is soooo cute! oh oh my baby Shanti"

Es grandisimo! no lo entiendo porque, si es hijo de Victor jaja, I guess he will have the body structure of the mothers side. My sister is a warrior!

He is perfect! I love his chubby cheeks!

Santiago, welcome to your very interesting family! We all love you so very much!

:)

Sterio Love

Esta cancion tenia que quedar aqui, me encanta!




Y el video es increible!

Enjoy! :)

dentro de mi botella

Yesterday was a good and bad day....

I'll explain, my brothers birthday was on Thursday, but celebrated til yesterday. We went to san dimas park, like when we were children. Visit the mini zoo and viewed the horses. ahhh lovely, I lack nature in my life. We had a picnic, ate fruit chips, and in n out burgers (yum!!!).

Then we headed to Sofia's house to cut Juniors cake. When we got there Victor had a CPR training for all of us. So I know how to perform CPR, yay! We watched some of those fucken naco videos with jokes, stupid jokes that is, but family time was nice.

I got home and began to watch The Holiday. I don't know why I get sad with love movies.

My mind goes back back back... going back is not that good. Although I lived very very happy moments in my life, all is gone. Going back just invades my self with sadness... and I can't help it feel hopeless. Hope is my motivation and when I lose it I break inside.

Many times I wish I could change my stubborn way of being. I always want to know everything behind the scenes. I look back at all the times I pushed him away... and I think of different things I could have done better... but now it is too late. I'm not sure how I feel about second chances. I feel they are never as good as the first one. I've always said, what is meant to be it will be... we just gotta stay strong, head held up high... and don't let your surroundings break us down. We each live the life we want to live.

Thank God for Ari, she is my shoulder and the one person who understands me. We help each other fight our own demons *sigh*... but today I feel better. Just another week at begin at work.

The goo goo dolls place me in a different world... a happy world

Dentro mi botella de cerveza...

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