We gotta work with what we have, good or bad... I'm not even sure why I write today. Sometimes I wish I could be one of those people who can just leave it all. Just grab a bag, take a few bucks and plant roots in a different land. But I always think about consequences for everything, I over analyze everything. I always need a reason, an explanation for everything. As much as I know somethings in life are unexplainable.... somethings or people are not worth trying to understand, I still try.
I always want answers! always, ALWAYS! I hate that about me. I always need to make sure the plan works. My dad made me this way, I was raised making the most rational choice, the promising choice.
It's good, it is. But.... to some extent I feel I am missing something. I don't know what but something.... things that I don't know exist because I am doing the promising decisions.
Some days I wake up down down down haha... I should really stop listening to radiohead and billie holiday....
....people around me are so religious lately. People I knew were not. People who shared my point of view. Maybe I should try to believe more. How bad can it be to believe in fairy tails?
I hope I don't offend anyone, but like I mentioned before I need fact to believe. I need answers, realistic answers....
Anoche Juan prendio una veladora por su amigo (may he rest in peace). Y lo mire cuando lo hizo... tan credulo, tan dedicado, tan creyente, con una paz en el. No es tan malo creer. No se porque no creo... deveria.
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I feel the same way a lot of the time. Just want to grab a bag and go. No idea where but just get up and see where i am taken. But I am also a person who analyzes everything and needs a reason. The unsureness of it too is a factor because where am I going, what will I do when I get there, will I ever get there? Then I have to analyze that and I don't wanna go anymore.
ReplyDeleteBut i like how you began it: We gotta work with what we have, good or bad. Too true.