Aloooo...

Oh c'on!
I'm really not that bad...

<3

Damn you Dress

Putting the dress on doesn't help. It's just another reminder of nothing. How 'could have' never was. How somethings don't workout... lately all the time. Just the thought of wearing the dress... it's like wearing a mask. Something I am not, something I will never be.

How can I say no, how can I refuse to wear it. I don't feel beautiful in the dress, the dress lies. It makes me lie to myself. BUT I'll wear it, with a smile.

You won't see me in one of those in a while. I quit wearing those dresses, I quit all the nonsense that comes with it the dress....

F U dress! and all that comes with it!

Some Days are Down

Some days I wonder if I fight to hide other feelings. I got in to an argument with my dad and I said things I shouldn't have but I did and what's done is done. Now I regret it but the anger hasn't left. It's been around for a while. I should get over my self but some things are not easy to forget. I did it again , I say things that I know are hurtful but I still do it to prove my point. I forget some people prefer not to be told. Some days I wished I lived very far away.... that way I can miss them and appreciate what I have at home. I should do something about that thought.... Moving away....

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I have a feeling I will dream tonight... Good night.

that night

Sigue mi tormenta con los sueños, the lack of them… ya van varios dias q me levanto con la cabeza en blanco sin ningina recoleccion de algun sueño (se siente horrible). Este fin de
semana hubo eventos q me hicieron sentir incomoda y fuera de lugar, pero lo
sobre pase… aunque me volvi a portar cabronamente con los q mas quiero, I know. Una persona me dijo me acento les molesta... jaja! Y otra me dijo que era bonita, jaja mas risa!

Y de nuevo hubieron discusiones sobre la adiccion. Yo siempre e dicho todo en exsesivo es malo, pero no todos piensan como yo. Algunos se pierden en otro mundo... y por mas
que quiera ayudar no se puede… como se ayuda a alguen que no se quiere ayudar a
si mismo?

Fuera de eso… yo como persona me siento bien. Dije cosas q nacieron del corazon y no me arrepiento. Aunque para algunas cosas mi corazon es demaciado sensible, pero haci soy, es inevitable, y por fin acepto esa parte blanda de mi. Prometo escribir mas, cuando andan
las cosas muy mal no lo ago y desde hace tiempo yo como persona andaba mal… pero regrese.
Mis fotos me ayudan mucho.

....

The XX

The hair on my neck stands up... love this song, enjoy ;)

It wouldn't be the same without the lisp!

Lo que no paso

The trip to NY was canceled for X reason. People don't matter like they did before. In the need to make another change. I don't know what to do with this personality that gets bored of everything. I can't stick to something for too long. It keeps me moving but nothing is ever permanent.

I've always said that I scare myself on how easy it is for me to say good bye to some people. bye bye!

Letty, she is always there! Hello!

Men

MEN MEN MEN MEN MEN MEN MEN MEN MEN MEN MEN MEN MEN MEN MEN MEN MEN MEN MEN MEN MEN MEN MEN MEN MEN MEN MEN MEN MEN MEN ................................. Son insoportables y la misma vez los buscamos........

No me toques las piernas que estoy sensible....

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Someone like You....

Nevermind, I'll find someone like you... Don't forget me, I beg, I remember you said:- "Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead"...

Luego regreso... ya que baje la marea...



.

Azul

Always try your best! That way if things don't workout you won't ever have regrets!!!

Now 25! No comments just a lot of thoughts in my head, so many that I don't even know how to explain. Four months till the year ends! I still have a good feeling... interesting conversations that make me think.

Saludos a los q aun leen!